2012 … A look ahead.

Still searching ...Disclaimer: This post has virtually nothing to do with wine.

During the past few months life has really been weighing on me. Some may call it a mid life crisis, a search for the ‘Meaning of Life’ or any number of other cliches but I felt strongly enough about it to put it in print.

For most of my adult life I’ve been searching for a sense of purpose. What am I here for? What path does my ‘Pursuit of Happiness’ take? I used to think it was, at least a little bit, tied to money. I’m really not sure since I never seem to have enough of it. I took two years off after high school to travel and have fun. After this I attended college during which time I lost a lot of sleep and took advantage of the youthful debauchery associated with that. I’ve done rah-rah network marketing, insurance & investment brokering, retail sales, futures trading and have sold cemetery plots. Some grad school in between there somewhere. I’ve suffered through back breaking foundry work, mindless office jobs, restaurant work, technical support and chased down stolen rental cars. I have invested heavily in self improvement and awareness, taken the Landmark Forum and attended dozens of churches. Answers? Mmmm no.

In the past I’ve gained & lost dozens of pounds at a shot in a matter of days. I took Hydroxycut to the point of hallucinating. I’ve worked out strenuously for weeks (not lately hahaha) and languished on the couch for months. I went through a running renaissance that led to a ten miler with very little training. I miraculously walked away from a high speed car crash that nobody should have survived. Does any of this mean anything? I dunno.

I’m now here on the horizon of my 45th year and by now you think there would be some kind of direction. Well I’m sad to say, not really.

I’m a bit wiser now and not as high strung as I was in my youth but I continue to feel a fire inside of me that begs for an outlet. I have an persistent feeling that I’m capable of greatness but I need an arena for that. Right now I’m pursuing a Paleo eating lifestyle and changing things incrementally in my life, hopefully for the better. But knowing my history, I’m wondering how long it will be until I get bored and move on to the next big thing. Normally one and a half to two years is my threshold but we will see.

Anyway, I’m done ranting. No I’m not giving up wine, even though it’s not part of my new diet. Since I’ve been a student of this fascinating culture, I’m finding there may be a few answers there. I’ll let you know if I come up with anything.

Happy New YearI will continue to sing the praises of my wonderful wife, Fran who represents the one area of my life where I made a great decision.

Thanks to all of you great individuals for stopping by and reading. I hope that 2012 brings you all happiness and for me .. a little peace.

Doug Zimmerman
Publisher, Uncorked Remarks

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8 Responses to 2012 … A look ahead.

  1. Michelle says:

    I just asked Siri, and she answered, “Life: the condition that distinguishes animals and plants from inorganic matter, including the capacity for growth, reproduction, functional activity, and continual change preceding death.”

    Of course, I asked her ten more times, and she gave me 10 different answers. I think one of the answers had to do with consuming chocolate! LOL

  2. Katie says:

    Thank you Doug for the snapshot of your life. Here’s to some peace for all of us!

  3. Joanna says:

    Good on you Doug – the search for meaning in life should never cease – passing on your experience and expertise, what you have learnt so far on your journey is a great step to take on this journey through life ….

  4. Tim says:

    Doug!! Rant away buddy!! You have found the answer with Paleo, and you don’t have to completely give up your wine!! Keep it red, and enjoy it with a good Grass fed steak a couple times a week!! Never stop striving to find the best you, ever!! The time to commit to Paleo lifestyle fully is now!! It will help you think better, sleep better, have better sex, and there will be no reason to ever look back!! I believe in you!! You got this!! Life is full of ups and downs…don’t let your diet (noun, way of eating) be a crutch!! Focus your energies on what you truly love to do, and just do it!! 🙂

    Tim

  5. Kris Hansen says:

    Thanks Doug! You’re so amazing. I love your insightfully straight comments. Keep searching. It’s in the journey. You are a lovely restless soul. A beautiful generalist. There is nothing to change. You’re perfect and everyone loves you. Here’s my advice: next time do the homework as it is designed. You will get the breakthrough. And life is empty and meaningless and it doesn’t mean anything that it doesn’t mean anything.

  6. Beth says:

    Thank you for sharing this post with me. You have had an interesting journey thus far and have probably learned more than most of us along the way. Restlessness, change, and moving from one experience to another is not a weakness. I suspect you are destined to keep moving and experiencing lots of exciting opportunities in the future, especially in the wine world. You may not realize it yet, but greatness comes from within, not from the outside world. I believe it’s already inside of you and you are positively affecting those around you without even knowing it, sort of like George Bailey in my favorite holiday movie, “It’s a Wonderful Life.” Cheers!

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